So many things that the heart couldn't say.

There I was ready to spill everything and confess every single feeling that i had for you but i end up staring at those screen speechless. my fingers went numb maybe because it was stuck between listening to my brain or my heart. My heart said go do it! do it now or you will regret! but then my brain stop me from doing it because the brain wants to avoid the heartache. I never know when is the right time.

i asked him, do you remember day when we first got to know each other. he replied this. “i can’t remember. you?” i smiled. i said it was last year but i couldn’t remember the month. then he replied, “5 or 6.” haha. you remembered don’t you. i asked him to describe me. this is what he replied, “i can describe you, but i cant tell you. let me keep it by myself jelah. i know u really want to know tapi..i cant” and i smiled again. he will never tells me. i asked him before. he gave me the same answer. and i don’t know why. 

I’m afraid that if i didn’t tell him now, i might lose him forever. but I’m also afraid if i told him, the answer would not be what i expected. I’m hopelessly in love with him. ):

Current status : Graduated (:

Monday- 17th October 2011

 I am officially a dip holder. Alhamdulillah. after two years i spent studying in Unisel. i am finally graduated. It was quite an emotional journey for me as Abah was not there to watch me. to be with me. But i did this for him. and i want him to be proud of me.

'Abah, Ain dah kotakan janji kan? harap abah bangga dengan ain. i love you and i miss you so much. )':

My mum and abang jol came that day. this is for them. i will further my studies but i don't know where yet. maybe unisel or maybe uitm. pray the best for me okay. here are some snapshots for you guys. (:

Thank you for helping me grow up (:

Candid! (:

Me and Nana. Congrats babe! (:

Sem 5B. My awesome classmates (:

Upon meeting you i felt i should be with you always (:

Boy you got my heartbeat runnin' away
Beating like a drum and it's coming your way
Can't you hear that boom, badoom, boom, boom, badoom, boom, bass
Yeah that's that super bass (:


I like you Mr K. but I'm scared that i might get hurt. silly of me to like you when you were just a friend of mine. I need to stop this feeling but i'm loving it. i don't know why. please let me have this moment for a while. it gives me happiness even fr just a short while. 


Deep down in my heart, i pray that this time love will be on my side. to be able to feel love from someone who i start to fall for. truly. But if your love didn't choose me, it's okay. It will hurt me but i'll be okay. and i will keep you as the sweetest memory ever. and that my friend, is a promise. 


Much love (:

Ain't that a kick in the head?

Hello gorgeous guys and pretty girls,
I just got back from de mall with my mates. its been ages since i last saw them. So yeay me! finally, i get to meet and hang out with my bff Lyeen, nizam and naguib. we went for a movie. pleaseee percaya saya tengok cerita melayu : Al-hijjab.seriously best *well, mainly because the lead actor is aaron aziz Pierre Andre.* hehehe. ;p awww i just love him. yelah dengan pelat S dia tuu *berangan sekejap* okay back to the topic. then we had our lunch at the garden. yes. the food is superb! plus ada waiter comel dekat situ. *wink wink* so yes, i am having fun today. thank you friends (:

Ouh yea! we do have few heart to heart talks. i asked my friend about his opinion on how this particular guy react towards me. and after the long explanation and stuff, he gave me his opinion about it by saying these two words : Dia Malas. slapppp on me face. :(

Yes. there he said it. and you know what, i have to say that i agreed with him. i mean, i have to stop this silly denials that he might just be busy or you know need time etc. but the truth is yes, dia malas. so i really need to stop thinking about him. i need a new man, new love in my life. i need an official boyfriend. i really do.

I want to be able to feel happy again knowing that i will have someone to text to. to call at late nights. to go hang out on weekends. to have silly jokes with him. to have secrets together. yes. i need that. i don't ask fr much. i just need one. i need to feel love again.

All this while, i refused to let any man in and break those walls around my heart. but you know what? i just did. i let my walls down. so, do come in and capture my heart. just promise to stay in it forever. (:

I am officially letting you go. And i'm waiting for that someone new to take your place. i am ready to be in love again. but this time, with a guy who truly, madly in love with me.

with love:
me (: