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Monday, September 20, 2010

Sober.

Hye peeps!
feeling depressed with my surroundings.i had enough with people who loves to make me wait.make me wondering.giving me mixed signals.durhh.i have life too u know.i am being 100% patient with u but then i too have limits and i'm pretty sure i might blow up one of these days.u have to speak up.tell me what is actually on ur mind.i'm sorry if i over think about it but thats what girls do.they love to think deeply about things and i'm one of them. i hate unfinished sentences.i need to know.u're being manipulative towards me.yeah maybe i'm naive but still don't do that to me.if there is any dislike button for sure i will click it.i asked u questions and u asked the same questions back but then i'm willingly answered it and not you.its not fair dear.stop torturing me please.tell me what actually do u want me to.cos for all u know i might walking away and never look back.and again i might dissapear like what i always do.for a second, i think guys are complicated.and i'm sticking to that opinion of mine.
i'll try my best to walk away just to avoid the heartache. =(
till then.

Friday, September 10, 2010

Its Aidilfitri Again!

Hye peeps!
its syawal '10 again. Alhamdulilah masih berkesempatan untuk menyambut hari raya Aidilfitri tahun ini. But sad to say that we've lost someone who always been there for us. Abah. this is our first time celebrating Aidilfitri without our hero. Its weird you know.and i just realize that we have to enjoy every bits of life and cherish the moment for we not know how long we will live.
Arra bangun pukul 730 pagi.haha.i know! da consider lambat dah. but sleepy lah. we got up, taking shower and get ready for the 1st syawal. I did my hair. sis long still busy altering our baju kurung. sis lin busy with her make ups. erin busy with i dunno what. mum busy preparing foods and my brothers were at masjid performing sembahyang raya.
After done with everything. all of us went downstairs to eat our juadah raya which i would say TWO THUMBS UP. thanks ma for the tasty hari raya dishes. ngee!
next came the emotional part asking forgiveness to each others. all of us shed our tears as it was very very emotional for all of us.
then we hit the road to visit abah and my brothers.
done doing that, we head back home having rest. so basically this Aidilfitri is not like an other aidilfitri that we have celebrated before. these are some pictures that i managed to snap for our 1st syawal.






till then guys. selamat hari raya once again!
xoxo.
arra







Saturday, September 4, 2010

Fresh Start!

Hye Peeps!
How are you? if u notice i just deleted all my current posts.dunno.frustrated with things so i decided to do just that.haha.but its okie.i'm here now with new post and a fresh start. =)

 Tak tahu nak start dari mana.but heyy, how about what i'm planning to do for tomorrow? yea? okie.Esok dah janji nak keluar dengan bestie i. ZAIM! haha. and meeting new friend too.marissa.hoping she can bare with my shengalNESS.haha. Planning nak pergi beli kasut kesayangan yg diidamkan oleh zaim. so we're going to sunway and teman i pergi survey baju raya.warna nk sedondon kan kan? aha.ouh yeah! cakap pasal raya ada lagi beberapa hari nk countdown for it. 5 days to go. i bet you hari raya jatuh on Friday. aha.tapi still, family arra tak buat any preparations at all. i pun tak beli baju lagi or whatsoever. dunno.not in the mood for raya i guess. its not the same now with abah not around. haihh.pelik lah..and i am so positive that i am sooo going to cry first day of raya. =(


Anddd right now me and aina are not in good terms with someone.i think you know who. malas nak cerita banyak.let us handle it okie? i miss time when everything goes perfectly right. i miss it damn much!i want my life to be cheerful like it used to be. butt! never regret of what i've done before right? haha.
actually, i dh tak tau nk crap apa dlm post kali ni. so can i go now? pleaseee..
aha.
Till next time.
xoxo.
arra



Wednesday, July 7, 2010

My only Hero : Abah.

Encik Abdul Aziz bin Zakaria nama di beri. Insan yang penting dalam hidup aku. Ye, dia ialah abah aku. the one who raised me with his bare hands. the one who feed me. the one who help me with my math work. the one who picks me up and send me everywhere i want to go. the one who scold me whenever i did something wrong for me to learn from my mistakes. the one who makes me happy. the one who made me who i am today. and because of him, i'm still studying so that i can have a better future. he is an ex soldier. i am proud of him. not only he protects the country but his own family too. he is strong, determined, never a quiter, firm, kindness, and a very loving father. he is my only hero. my only love. i miss the old days when he arounds me. his laugh, smile, frown and the way he scold me. i really missed it very much. But now, he's gone. left us. Allah S.W.T loves him more and at least he is at peace. no more torturing him with needles and kimo.

* Abah, you will always be my hero. and always in my prayers. be happy abah. eventough you are not around.but i know you always be beside me. watching over me. Semoga abah ditempatkan di kalangan orang orang yang beriman. Aminnn. Al-Fatihah.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

What If?

Hye peeps! nampak tajuk hari ini? GOOD! Meaning you all sangat peka.

This is just another opinion of mine, so bare with it okie? I really hate to use the word IF atau dalam bahasa melayu nya KALAU. Its not like i have issues with it or what. But to me people who use this word are not confident enough to deal with whatever they're doing. In other word, i called it regret. Why do we have to regret something that has been done or soon to be done? Whatever the outcomes we have to deal with it and when things does not happen the way we intended it to be, yeah it  kind of frustrated but hey what is done can't be undone right? try take things as +ve as we can. take it out of the box.. things happen for reason. teach us a lesson that we must not repeat in the future. right? But lately, i like to use this word alot. i mean alot. i keep questioning myself,
 "What happen if I met him first?"
"What if i choose to study in MSU instead of unisel?"
"What happens if i choose to confess my feeling?"
"What will happen if i didn't move on?"
"Will he response +vely if i confess my feeling?"
"What if i choose to friend with my other classmate and not them?"
"Will i make other new friends if i didn't met them?"
"If i study hard enough i might get 4 flat"
"if i didn't go out for overnight maybe i could save my money."
"If i choose to tell the truth, maybe just maybe i felt a bit relief."

Well, this is what i'm going through right now. I'm questioning myself about what i did in the past, or what should i do in the past. The result? Well if i keep questioning myself, i might go crazy..haha..
thats why i choose to think +vely about things that already happened. Take it as a lesson so i won't repeat the same mistakes again and guess what? I think all of us should do it. Whatever happened in your past, take it as your life experience and the bittersweet of memories. Come on, we only get to be teenagers once in our lifetime. So cherish the moments and keep that McD's smile always..

untill then,
arra

Sunday, May 9, 2010

08.05.2010

Happy Birthday Arra! up to 80 notifications on facebook. ngee~ i love u guys! thank you for all the wishes and prayers. Ouh ya thank u for remembering it. i've been  pranked! by my housemates.thank u girls..korang memang pelakon KELAS A! haha..i fell for it and the result? 90 % of my body were covered with flours and cream cake. Yeay! seriously thank u girls..and for that i ran as fast as i could.haha..glad to laugh and have good times.i feel like small kids again.playing run and chase. <3 it was an awesome birthday. And then i spend the whole day with my besties, Fatin, Zaim, Wani and Hakim. Thanx guys! i really had fun and LOL..karaoke and so much for picnic? ahahaha....Zaim! thank u for the giant chocolate! i really loved it! sweetlah kao dude..hehehe. But then we didn't make it to reach the gate before 12 p.m so we head to Nilai to meet up with Ahmad. haha..thank u for your time dude and make my soulmate smile all the way. =] owe u big time. Now I'm 19 already. how times fly without i noticed it. There's so much i want to do right now and insya allah i will try and make it happen.. Ouh ya SELAMAT HARI IBU, MAK! you are my truly soulmate mom, u noe me well enough kan mak? thank u for everything and especially your LOVE AND CARE for me..thank u mak! I LOVE YOU mak! =]

i got to go now..i had such a blast on my 19th birthday. thank u to all the peoples who made my day..I love u guys so much!

till next tyme
arra :)

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Its Raining..=]

Hye peeps!
I was busy surfing the net when suddenly i felt chill through my window. I looked through my window pane, and its raining outside.Rain brings back the memories with him. The thought of it makes me smile all the way. Remember our first time going out together for the sake of accompany him to meet his pal. I never have any secrets when I’m with him. He knows when I’m mad, I’m sad and he knows the right way to make me smile again. The only secret I keep from him is how I feel about him. I care for him more than a friend. It was the thing that can ruin our friendship. So I keep it as a secret up until now. He shares everything with me. We were unseparateable. I remembered when sis Nedd asked me "Dia tak boleh ke kalau tak melekat dengan arra?" I was stunned. Ididn't answered. I don't want to put any hopes on him so I came up with the thought that he might treat me as his sister helps me a lot. But then my besties makes me realize that he did make the first move and i was too stupid to noticed it. It reminds me of a movie, "A lot like love" ashton kutcher and this actress i can't recall her name. long story, short : he did makes the first move but the girl didn't noticed it and it took her years to finally know about it and came running back for him. Lucky her, she managed to get in time." how I wish it would be that easy  for me. =]
You can do this, trust your heart and never back down again! It was him all along and always will.
This time, i promise to myself and my besties let me make the move. I may not end up with him but he will always be my best friend forever.

*keep smiling all the way
untill then

xoxo
arra

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Peoples Act

Hye peeps!
Interesting day i had today. Both good news and bad news. nak tahu? tempted right? haha~ make yourself comfy 'cause it will be a hell of story. It  goes like this, we were having our night discussion with all my groups about the play of course. And someone just blurted out saying that other group have already know about our whole idea of the play. Agak pissed off. supposed to be top secret kot, but end up somebody has already spill the beans..nak buat mcm mana right? In return, we all dapat tahu other group punya idea too! and guess what? they're doing a play about mean girls..and mereka menjadikan saya, fatin dan aina sebagai contoh terbaik! haha~ watak kami di adaptasi dalam teater.Best kot!haha~ but deep down inside I'm questioning myself, what did we do to them so badly that they have to be sarcastic and hate us in a kind of way? i don't get them. We did not ask for anything and we still have to pay? ishk ishk! note to them, grow up! be an adult for once...

*Grabbing milo! hey life goes on!

till then,
xoxo
arra

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Bittersweet Of days

Hye Peeps!
Hari ini sungguh memenatkan. I tidur lambat semalam for da sake of nak siapkan assignment yang datelinenya hari ini...wow! note to myself: jangan buat kerja last minute..
Nasib baik class 8.30 cancel..dapat tidur extra 2 hours..hehe~ bangun2 muka sudah segar tak mamai lagi okie? =] perut pula dah mula buat ghazal untuk rabiah..haihh, makan biskut Ok crunch terus capai beg pergi kelas. Pukul 2 sampai 5 petang pengajian M'sia. tapi dah tercegat lama kat dalam kelas sejak pukul 11 pagi..buat last minute slides..as always, bila group ramai banyak pendapat and comments..nak tak nak ada je nak buat last minute edit. nak high score larh..haha but end up we all have to edit back the assignments minus 2 marks!! ya rabbi, nak buat macam mana nak tak nak kena accept the fact that our assignment did not please our lecturer..Balik hostel we all dah kebulur dah ni..sempat tapau nasi goreng ane kacak tu buat..haha~ Then rest sekejap 8 p.m continue buat discussion tentang teater yang nak kami lakonkan. Hectic gila! well thats is my duty as a student. either way have to accept it.need some time to go out and take a fresh air..=.="
need it badly! hahaha..but then if tak ada class langsung then i will be so bored and nothing else to do..human are complex and weird..that is the fact honey..hahaha
deal with it..

*Aina dah bising nak masak nasi and makan..Fatin tengah melalak.hahaha gtg!
till then
xoxo
arra

Friday, March 12, 2010

Usually

          Usually I will spend saturday with my bff's. I've changed a lot i guess. I'm the kind of girl who love to go out and have fun..I won't stay at home even if I'm sick.But lately, since me and my friends went to college, we're been busy and now i just prefer to stay at home and relaxing my mind. And I just realise how i change to be more patient. Dulu, jentik sikit I dah mula bad mood and a bit temper. Now, jentik macam mana pun I'll remain cool.. My mom thinks i'm having problems. One night she came to my room and asked me,"Ain, kenapa? ma tengok macam ada masalah je." I'll simply just shook my head and smile."Ain okey je." It's not that I don't have problems, i do.but i prefer to keep it to myself. I'm not use to telling people how i feel. I only tell them when they provoke me to tell them but for the record none yet. My problems is my diary. I choose not to tell and just keep it to myself. That's just me..Since i was a little girl I don't know how to express it. They all tought i'm a happy go lucky girl with zero problems. well maybe i'm good at hiding my feelings. I prefer to listen their problems than to tell my problems. This what usually happens to me..What about the Unusual? haha~let it be my secret ya? no need for you guys to know..

*perut sudah mula menyanyi minta diisi, apalagi makan jom?
till then,
xoxo...
arra

Kawan dan waktu

Happy Birthday Hanis! arra tahu kau mesti mahu sambut bersama kan? tapi masing-masing ada komitment yang perlu dibuat..Jutaan Maaf hanis..Janji bulan 6 kita keluar ye? =]
Hari ini Bangun dengan liat sekali.Nasib baik Ma kejut, kalau tak sampai ke cerah anak dara ini masih lena tidur.Khusyuk bermimpi.hahaaha~Mimpi apa ntah namun yang pasti arra lena dibuai..h0h0..
Sudah lama kah arra tak update blog? mungkin sibuk..maaf ye! Ouh ya.. hari ini arra ingin berkongsi 'warna' baru dalam hidup arra..Ketiadaan mereka di dalam hidup arra mungkin ada hikmahnya. Arra dipertemukan, diperkenalkan dengan sahabat-sahabat baru.Yang pasti kawan sejati Arra, lyeen, fatin, hanis dan aina masih setia menemani, melayani kerenah ku..betul kata orang, luaskan pergaulan ada baiknya juga.
Untuk tugasan Pengajian Malaysia Mpw 1113, arra dapat bekerja dengan pelajar pintar di dalam kelas..Bangga sekejap, dapatlarh belajar sedikit sebanyak daripada mereka. Dari pandangan arra, mereka memang sangat komited dengan tugasan yang diberi..Tabik Senget diberi! =]


Dalton, Priya, Fatin dan Aina.. itulah ahli kumpulan kami..Happy times with them!

Kemudian 7 march 2010,
Arra ditemukan dengan kawan baru lagi, Ruzaimi dan Hakim..Ruzaimi sudah arra kenal lebih dulu daripada Hakim..Lokasi kami Putrajaya. Pertama kali menjejakkan kaki ke Alamanda.hahaha~ bukan tak pernah dipelawa pergi, it just that everytime my brother ajak arra malas nak ikut..hehe~Alamanda boleh tahan besarnya. we all were cracking our minds to pick a movie.."Niyang rapik? valentine's day? solomon kane?" haihh semua dah pening, akhirnya, Valentine's day menjadi pilihan..hahaha..Tak rugi duit beli tiket..Jalan cerita yang menarik, menunjukkan setiap insan ada masalahnya sendiri.Two Thumbs Up!




Gambar kami di Putrajaya..Credit to Hakim!

Itulah warna baru yang arra baru kenal..berkawan biar seribu, kan? haha~ minggu yang cukup memenatkan..namun sempat lagi menghirup udara dan mencuci mata..h0h0. Saat-saat macam inilah yang memberi cabaran dengan pandai membahagikan masa...well, i did well with it..
Till then.
xoxo,
Arra

Friday, February 26, 2010

Hari Ini

Hari ini Arra rasa gembira..pagi bangun pukul 7.30 pagi mandi2 dah ready to go.. so Aina drives my dad car. we all just sight seeing Putra Heights early morning (HAHA..Gila ke?)
Sebenarnya we all kena shoot video and also snap some photos..
but then the vid didn't last long.. we want a 15 mins shoot..haihh..
having difficulty ouh..
but then we continue our journey to Bukit tinggi, Bukit Raja and Klang parade..to find dress..hailoh its a hell of a effort...i almost giving up..but then tarrrraaaaaaaaa i found it at last! aha!
perfect for me!

Monday, January 11, 2010

A New Beginning

hye all,
there is so many things i would like to pour on this blog.too many to name it..hahaha~
well, it is still not late for me to wish u all a happy new year..2009 have give me so much misery im glad its gone now..2010 is another new chapter in my life...

well, there is this particular person note* if u reading this i hope u will eventually understands.
accusing me n my bff like sum kind of stuck up and arrogant just b'cos we didn't contact this person. well as u can see, not only u darling but i didn't contac any friends other than my bff..u accusing us being BUSY by txting other people or BOYFRIENDS..hahaha so funny. well guess what? i don't give a damn about u and ur unsatisfied feelings towards us for not asking how r u doing? cos i have so many things going on in my life other than making myself busy by asking or texting u how r u? u said to this gurl, that there one of ur friend just txting me to talks about boys..i have to admit that 'person' must be me hahaha. am i rite? if u have the nerve, tell me by urself not tru other people..i wont bite! trust me~hate us fuck us? well im sorry honey, we are not that mean it just that people changed.and YOU change alot! u r being so imature about this silly things. come on grow up already, dun make a big fuss out of silly small stuff okie?
to this person if u reading this, i hope it will open ur eyes and do think b4 start talking ya?

hate us just making us more and more loveable!
untill then,
c ya later bitch!
arra