head over heels

Assalamualaikum! Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri peeps! its 2011. second raya without abah. no worries. i'm okay.
its been a while since my last post isn't it? i had fun today. going house to house visiting my childhood friends. raya sana sini. 9 guys 2 girls. yea. i'm always one of the boys. hmmm. I have this weird feeling inside me.the feeling of wanting to felt love again. i want to have steady boyfriend. head over heels about someone. for this guy A. i don't know if this good choice for me or bad choice for me as i realise, day by day i started to forget about you, forget the feeling about you. as if i have given up on you. maybe its better for me to have this feeling and letting new man in my life. but lately, my mind reminds me of my first boyfie. Adika. yeap him. i don't know why. and today i saw him. i..i.. have to admit i regret that we end our relationship just like that. i regret that i said no when you asked me if there's any chance we could be together again. i'm sorry. maybe its too late now. i'm sure, if we are meant to be. we will eventually be together.