There I was ready to spill everything and confess every single feeling that i had for you but i end up staring at those screen speechless. my fingers went numb maybe because it was stuck between listening to my brain or my heart. My heart said go do it! do it now or you will regret! but then my brain stop me from doing it because the brain wants to avoid the heartache. I never know when is the right time.
i asked him, do you remember day when we first got to know each other. he replied this. “i can’t remember. you?” i smiled. i said it was last year but i couldn’t remember the month. then he replied, “5 or 6.” haha. you remembered don’t you. i asked him to describe me. this is what he replied, “i can describe you, but i cant tell you. let me keep it by myself jelah. i know u really want to know tapi..i cant” and i smiled again. he will never tells me. i asked him before. he gave me the same answer. and i don’t know why.
I’m afraid that if i didn’t tell him now, i might lose him forever. but I’m also afraid if i told him, the answer would not be what i expected. I’m hopelessly in love with him. ):
